Today would have been my dad’s 66th birthday. I lost my dad in 2017 and it was one of the most difficult things, devastating things that happened to me.
This conversation between my brother and I touches up on how dad’s death affected us.
The conversation also includes topics on parenting, tarot card reading, religion and that time we both had our tarot cards read in New Orleans by a man who calls himself Sen Elias. Also, it gets kind of hard to understand some parts because we’re laughing too much — and only people we mutually know will understand when we are talking about a particular thing or person — Emmanuel Con Dos Emmes being one of them.
My brother is one of my best friends and growing up, our family was very close, we still are despite living far apart. We manage to talk nearly every day even if it’s just a quick photo of his new baby or some random inside joke, we communicate daily.
This is just a small glimpse into our relationship and you can recognize that we cope with difficult situations and topics by adding humor and laughter. It’s not that we can’t be serious, it’s just that is how we cope with big events.
Having my brother in my life, I know I will never be alone. The same can be said for my children and mom. The closeness I had growing up, that love and bond, I have passed it down to my children and I hope they feel the same, loved completely and unconditionally and never alone.
After my marriage ended in 2017, my brother became the person I would rely on for relationship and dating advice. I had no idea what to do. I have since freaked out about dating because a. I don’t date often and b. it terrifies the shit out of me. I ask him for some advice and we generally discuss what I need to do, be as confident in love as I am in every other aspect of my life. That’s hard though because I am a perfectionist and one thing I have not perfected has been the art of love.
At the end of the conversation, my brother challenged me to interview one of his closest friends, Sara. Let’s see if she is up for the challenge.
